I hate myself.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010 // 5:13 AM
Its been a long time. I feel so depressed. Everything seems to be wrong, very wrong. I've had enough of it today... Ran 2.4km for NAPFA and I failed by 10 seconds. That could easily lead me to getting kicked out in tennis no matter how good I am. I admit I have nothing for sports and only joined tennis because I had no other choices. How awesome. Starting a day like that. It's really retarded when my classmates were like saying my 5 stations were really well done. Yeah. So what? I didn't get a shit in the end. Now everyone knows that Denise Lee Shu Ting currently in tennis, who consistently gotten silver and gold, failed NAPFA in 2010. What could be worse right? Yeah. When you've realised that you almost failed your maths on the same day. My heart literally dropped out when I knew the results for my maths project. SERIOUSLY. I hate it. Trust me, I hate it. I know that I'll never make up for it for my maths and literature anymore. Just when I thought all this drama had ended, I've realised that my social life is at stake too. WHATS WRONG TODAY??? I know YOU like to show-off. I know YOU like to play. BUT PLEASE. FOR THE FIRST TIME. IM BEGGING YOU. PLEASE STOP. Im tired. I thought about all this when I was bathing and eventually, I broke down.